I am your mummy!

Being twins full time mummy:

1. Sleep less, rest less, work almost 18 hours a day

2. Feel bad when both twins cried for milk initially, I keep on telling the other one, "Hold on Please, Gor Gor first or Mui Mui first ya!"

3. Feel bad when I need to cook and yet both cry for my attention and want me to carry, later I immune to your cry and let it be, T2 very fast learnt that no one will bothers her and she just stop crying. T1 very persistent crying for hug for longest time, I keep on telling myself, no worries, no body will die, despite T1 has hole inside his heart, I let him cry, then my first Filipino maid told me that morning crying strengthen his lung. After few sessions, T1 also learn and each time his cries is maximum 30 minutes.  I let him sleep alone at the cot instead of carry him sleep next to me, coz his sister will follow and both will play then and not sleep in the afternoon. He watches me sleeping on bed and cried loud loud, until sleep.

4. Sometimes mummy very tired and busy, mummy miss out to bathe you both, once or twice in a month during first 9 months. When I realise, was already 8pm plus at night, so decided just wipe your body.

5. Sometimes mummy very angry with your daddy, very upset with your grandmother, but mummy always tell myself, I am your mummy and I shall give you a home that full of love, full of harmony, full of laughter and and not full of quarrel and crying right? So everything I do I do it for you both.

6. Sometimes mummy feel like wanna back to work, but mummy understand mummy cannot have everything in this world, when mummy stays at home looks after your, mummy feels better and more secure.

7. Everything is give and take, I never regret my decision and I surrounded myself w full time happy mummies near and far.

8. Keep on remind myself to set learning and growing goals for you both.

9. What motivates me is everyday I remind myself to stay happy by doing things that I enjoy, could be making new friends, try a new recipe, watch a nice show, play and laugh with my twins.