First Letter To My Pre-mature Twins

The moment when mummy delivered you both at 35 weeks,  mummy was in depression with strong guilt, especially doctor pronounced you both have holes in your hearts.

Mummy greatest phobia was when both of you ill...

Your hospitalization record as of today:

1st Month:  NICU for 20 days for observation, blood transfusion and weight gain

1st Month 3rd week: Twin One admitted to hospital again due to abnormal ear discharge

2  Month: Both Twins admitted due to lung infection, both on oxygen tube support & antibiotic. Twin two re-admitted to ICU due to severe chest recession, mummy saw you being lock in a high oxygen flow incubator, crying very very loud. Nothing that mummy could do except watch you crying, helpless and in deep sorrow, mummy never forget the moment you were inside incubator. 

Twin One recover very slow due to hole in your heart...mummy broke down at hospital for 20 days without sleep. Despite doctor's advise, mummy never want to leave you at hospital alone receive treatment, mummy stay with you till doctor approve to discharge you. Your sister, twin two also stay with us, despite she was able to discharge one week earlier than you. 

7 month: Twin One out of sudden having high fever, another hospital stay for 1 week, this round mummy never cry, already a frequent hospital client, nothing worst compare to first two months that we went through baby. 

Mummy heard many real stories of pre-mature babies:

1.  Unable to walk untill 2 years old

2.  Unable to speak until 4 years old & etc.

Something that we don't know what to expect until the time comes.... mummy worry....whether it happens to you both...especially when both of you have heart defects.

NO! My twins, don't worry, as mummy writing this, both of your development has been on par with normal babies, sometimes even beyond daddy & mummy expectations!

Remember, it was Auntie L, your third month nanny whom came and help us.

Auntie L 

Sleep Through The Night 

She tune you both sleep through the night without milk ( 11pm-12am until 7am-8am ). Despite this, you both reach normal weight range at 3 month. 

Twin two, you didn't want to sleep. especially at night, cried non stop since second month back from hospital, daddy said you are colic baby, we tried all methods ( swaddle, carry you whole night long, sing & dance with you ) but doesn't work, until Auntie L came, you slept on her arm at night, only for a while ( about 5 minutes ) she carry you.

Sun Bath

Every morning sun bath you both for 10 minutes, to avoid skin problems. Doctor preamp mummy that twin one likely to have eczema ( seborrheic dermatitis ). Twin Two you have severe rashes on your cheeks. All thanks to Auntie L, you both never have the problem since then, don't even need to apply any cream from doctor.

Twin two you enjoy sun bath a lot, while Twin One, you cried so loud every time sun bath, until the neighbor would have taught we abuse you!

Supplements 

She introduces supplements that support your healthy growth. 

Ever since then, you both grow up healthy: 

6 Month: Twin One crawls

7 Month: Twin One can stand with support

9 Month: Twin Two crawls

9 Month: Twin One can walk with support

9 Month: Twin One mumbles "Papa"

10 Month: Twin Two also mumbles "Papa"

10 Month: Twin Two can stand and walk with support 

Your Heart Holes conditions:

Twin Two: @ 7 month, doc confirms fully closed up. Hurrah! 

Twin One: @ 9 month, doc said size has reduced from 6mm to 4mm, likely hood to close up as you grow up, no medication at all.

Its amazing that twin one can stand at seven month despite pre-mature and having hole in his heart, twin one, if mummy don't say this, no one knows you have hole in your heart right?

Mummy's Milk 
Mummy was very weak after delivery and didn't have enough breast milk, thought of giving up at third month but it was auntie L whom keeps on encourage mummy never give up, continue to pump out every 3 hours and every day prepare meals, soup that helps mummy increase milk. Thanks to her, although it wasn't enough for full supply, you both had enjoy mummy's milk.  

Porridge 

She taught mummy how to cook porridge. What to give you both eat so that you both grow up tall & strong. Twin Two, auntie L said will make you grow up tall with top fashion model's figure in future, but remember your daddy disapprove you to be a fashion model, ok? 

So even you are having the model's figure but you cannot become model, ok? :-)

My lovely twins:

You have trained mummy to live stronger
You have make daddy very busy in the morning and night ( no matter how busy, every day he gives you both his hugs and kisses, his smiles and his laughter, right? )


Remember, there were many people whom have helped us along the way, and we shall treasure them one day...

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